it's go on

It was hard to me, it was the hardest feeling that I even feel in my life, I did not understand what I feel now.
It’s go on
It’s so hard , I’m really not prepared to face it
It’s the first time I face it
I’m really hope it
I’m really dream it
I’m really wish it
But He does not apply and I hope my dream it’s abeyance
In the other time I really hope it,,,,,,